A great poem by my awesome friend Kirsten.

Okay this poem was made by a really good friend of mine Kirsten. I'm posting it here because this poem of hers just inspires and actually encourages me. Hope that it does the same thing to all of you who are reading this.
I wish I had your talent Kirst! Missing you and Kaitie-bug a lot! (Come back to Greece!!!)

Why, Lord?
Why is it so easy, Dear Jesus
For me to stumble and fail?
Why do I eat the forbidden fruit
When I know it's rotten and stale?

Forgive me for my numerous faults
When I stumble time after time
Like the woman turned pillar of salt
I look back at the word I left behind.

Why is it so hard to come back, Lord?
Even when I know that I'm wrong
The alter feels so far away
Because sin's pull is so strong.

The longer I put of repentance
The larger the gap between us grows
Harder it is to return to You
And be released by from the grasp of my foes.

Why do You love this poor sinner?
Lord, I bow at Your feet and I weep
When I think that my sin is the reason
Your son bore the world on the Tree.

I stand both in awe and in agony
Because I am what crucified
My sin is what hammered those nails in Your hands
And peirced the sword in Your side.

Ah l'amour...

It's quote day! Here are some quotes I found for all of you who are in love or trying to recover from that love... Hope you like them!

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."

-Neil Gaiman

*I'm so tired of falling and picking myself up.
I've fallen one too many times, And I can't keep
learning from my mistakes. I've done my part so
it's time you do yours. You can do one of two things.
You can make things right, or leave them wrong.*

*How far do I have to go to make you understand
I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't
keep on giving, go on living with the way things are
So I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say how far.*

Great love? - - -
Its when you shed tears for him..and still care for him
Its when he ignores you.. but you still long for him
Its when he starts loving another girl - -
And yet you manage to smile and find the courage to say
" Im happy for you "

What hurts more than losing you is knowing that you're not fighting to keep me.

And it's because of you that everything lately seems to be so hard.

If Only...

If only... How many nights have those 2 letter words hunted us? How many days, hours and minutes were our souls tortured by images of what we wish would have been? How many times have we pleaded, beseeched for the impossible which is to turn back time and change the past? As we toss and turn in our bed at nights we can't help but regret the sins we have done towards God, loved ones and even just strangers. We regret the things we did, things at which now has altered all those plans we have thought of. Plans that would have made our lives so much better...

"If only I have done it the way it was supposed to be, the way which I knew was right all along this would have never happened." is man's most repeated phrase in the darkness. Though when the same situation happen to us again but in a different form then we would totally know which way to choose because it has happen to us again right? Wrong. Sad to say man always choose pride and his self above all else, to show that he is right and all else is wrong even though he knows that he isn't. He chooses the road again that leads him to sleepless nights with "If only"s beside him. Wishing again and again to change what he has done but unfortunately even after all that pain he will never change.

This is what my dad must be feeling now. This is why our light in the living room is on while all else is off late at night. He's regretting it all by himself wishing that he could have been a different person to my mom. Wishing that he could have swallowed his pride, his egoism and did what was suppose to be done as a father and as a husband... But it's too late now Dad... It's just too late...

Congratulations! She sounds like she really mean it this time.

She must be feeling so happy now
now that she has you back by her side.
She must be feeling so complete
now that she has you again to keep.

But are you ready to take it all back again
are you ready to face the pain?
Are you ready to fall again
in her lies and deceits which drove you insane?

What happens when she leaves you again?
What happens when you start crying in the rain?
What happens when all those tears
leave you miserable, hopeless and not thinking clear?

Will you run to me again
cry back into my arms
tell me that I had always been right
while I'm hugging you tight?

But what would you say if I told you the truth
told you that I'm leaving
can't bear it anymore
because of this feeling
that brings me down crying on the floor.

Because it hurts me so much
when to you I'm only a friend
it kills me not to know
how to make this suffering end.

For you only come to me
when she makes you blue
You only need me
when you want a rebound, oh how cruel!

Even though I've loved you all along
and have told you a million times.
But I'm sick and tired of being there for you
because she's always the only thing in your mind.

So I wish you good luck
I hope this time you and her will work out
and I must confess to you that I will be in pieces
whenever I'll see you with her
trapped in her kisses...


Hallo hallo peeps!! =)

I've finally decided to post a blog without quotes or sayings but just what I think and stuff.. (boring? I know..=P but it's worth it you get to learn more stuff about me! hehe)

Anywayz, I had a revelation today. After 18 years of my life I just finally realized that coffee makes me nervous... -Rubs temple- And it also makes me dizzy but hyper at the same time lol.------------ (It's been like 15 minutes now and I can't think of anything else to write, gosh this blog thing is harder than I thought.)

You must probably be wondering why I drank coffee. Well it's because of the fact that I've only slept for only 2 hours these past 2 days! And it wasn't because I was reading and studying for my exams which are coming up in 1 week (wish me luck, I'm really going to need it!) but because of all you people out there who only gets on when I'm about to sleep and keeps me awake...(You all know who you are.. =P)

Anywayz since I'm making a blog I also want to write about all these stupid, dumbstrucking news, so you guys can be updated with what's happening to this oh-so crazy world...

-Clears throat and starts to speak in a serious tone of voice- An 18 year old teenage guy in South Carolina decided to blow himself up and his school (be prepares for this one!) so that he can die, go to heaven and asassinate Jesus... The kid was arrested on a Saturday (can't remember when) because his parents told the police that he odered ten pounds of amonium nitrate! o_O Wow I don't even know what to say instead of this guy is crazy, obviously lol (ok it's really not a subject to laugh about) but these types of news just makes you wanna think twice before leaving the house because you can never know if the stranger beside you is planning to blow up McDonald's just because it's the reason that he has gain 30 pounds! Here is the link to the story if you guys don't believe me. http://www.cbsnews.com/stories/2008/04/29/national/main4056750.shtml?source=RSSattr=HOME_4056750

Well that's it for now! I really need to lie down and because my dizziness is starting to turn into a migrane... -_-...