Just think happy thoughts, sprinkle a little fairy dust... and you're off to Neverland.

I believe in you.
Can you feel the deep impact it does to your soul?

I believe in you.
Don’t you just ache for someone to say those words and mean it?

I believe in you.
It’s been a phrase I’ve always been longing for…

All these years I’ve been telling everyone that I didn’t know what to do. But now after all that time I’ve figured out, I’ve figured out what I’ve always wanted to do.

I wanted to write.

Writing is my passion. It’s just something that makes me feel happy, makes me feel worthy, something that makes me feel alive in this stone cold world. However, even if it creates all these emotions inside of me there will be times when I just stop believing in myself and start distrusting on what I can do. I begin to think of what the little me can offer to others when there are so many more talented writers out there? What would be special about my writing that people would be able find solace in it, when most of the times I can’t even write what I want to write? And in these times, I just want someone to tell me those simple words.

“You can do it. I believe in you.”

I want someone to believe in me and someone I can believe in. I want someone who will say those words and mean it. Not just because it’s what friends say, something that is customary, no I want the real thing. Someone who believes that I can be who I wanna be and do what I wanna do.
So I guess until now I still haven’t figure out what I wanna study because I feel that no one believes in me and each one doubts my abilities. I sense that everyone keeps underestimating me so I keep underestimating myself. I know that no one believes in me so I slowly stop believing in myself...
I have to admit. I envy my friend Kirsten. Her dad believes in her writing. He thinks that it’s something really important so he keeps helping her with it.

So again I will say “I’ve always wanted that.”


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